Running is a drug...

I love to run!! I love it. It's my own little therapy session and I can tell you it's alot cheaper than therapy or so I've been told. So here's some truth into why I run and well just because

In March of 2007 I went on antiaxiety meds. My world felt like it was crashing down around me. I had family issues, job issues, money issues and a 2-1/2 year old. I was so stressed out that I would literaly hide out at home. While this was super easy for me since I worked at home, it was not me.
I am very much a people person I love to be with people but this axiety was holding me captive. I just didn't want to leave I just wanted to stay home.

So in pops the magic pill or what I thought was magic, and it did work for a bit. It took the edge off my life. I didn't freak out randomly anymore and it was easier to handle things for awhile, but I had no drive, no energy, no ambition, nothing...so fast forward to Nov 2011 when I went off my meds.

It was rough at first and I actually had some awful panic attacks but I made it through all the time working out by doing step areobics, kickboxing. It wasn't until May 2012 that I found my love for running again, and I started off super slowwwwww.....I walk to warm up, go into the park and try to run the whole park....one day I finally did it, and from there it's history.

I now run a 3 miler on Mondays, 4 on Wednesdays, and 6 on Saturdays. Running helps me sort out the BS in life, it helps me zone out and enjoy music, it helps my body's circulation issues, it helps me to have a self gratifing moment of I did it!! I'm really doing this. I'm running and I'm getting better, and faster, and fitter...and most of all it's do-able.

I'm losing weight and I don't get too freaked out when I plateau.I just know that I'm not eating as well or I need to step up my game and I'm doing it. Hopefully this time next year I'll be at my goal weight ...until then here are some pic's 25lbs lost already 75 more to go.

Yes I know I have a ton to go...Loving the sagging gut. Thanks to my beautiful 3 children. I have lovely stretch marks that yes once I lose my weight I will get a mom makeover.
I maybe vain but I would like to be comfortable in my own skin and if that's what it takes I'm going to do it. I'm still young and I want to enjoy wearing young clothes...

If You REALLY Knew Me.....

Stole this from ally and mama...Kind of fun...


If you really knew me ......

**you'd know that I'm totally obsessed with 50 shades of Grey right now!

 

**You'd know that I think Matt Bomer is so frinkn hot!!! as well as Channing Tatum, Vin Diesel, I could go on but I will spare you the drool.

 

**you'd know that I love to dance and actually can dance.

 

**you'd know that I struggle with my weight and always have.

 

**you'd know that I'm a loyal friend, one that would take a bitch down if need be.

 

**you'd know that I'm tough but I'm still very tender hearted.

 

**you'd know that I love my kids, husband, family and friends with my whole being.

 

**you'd know that I love music...rap...r&b...country...classical....you name it I listen to it.

 

**you'd know that I run, take step, and will try anything that can get my heart pumping.

 

**you'd know that I love makeup...seriously a makeup whore...

 

**you'd know that I love my hair, and it is the one thing that I can never make a decison on...highlights, no highlights, dark, light...so I stick with the same style.

 

**you'd know that I struggle with trusting others.

 

**you'd know that I can't take compliments.

 

**you'd know that while I'm scared of spiders I will kill them for my kids.

 

**you'd know that I can unclogg the tub, fix the toilet, and will try to fix anything before calling in the professionals.

 

**you'd know that I love to take pictures.

 

**you'd know that my favorite thing to do is craft or be crafty

 

**you'd know that I absolutely hate blunt bangs on kids except if their of the asian decent.

 

**you'd know that I'm a sucker for someone that cries and will cry with them even if I don't know them.

 

**you'd know that I wish I looked like Sophia Varga...She is absolutely gorgeous...curvy and fit!

 

**you'd know that I have a love for halter and strapless tops/dresses but can't wear them because I have to wear a bra and I'm jealous of those that don't have too.

 

**you'd know that I can't stand dishes in my sink.

 

**you'd know that I want to help others and try too.

 

**you'd know that I love Halloween.

**you'd know I hate fake people.

**you'd know I hate liars.

**you'd know I love sweatshirts

**you'd know I want to wear a bikini one day but have too many strech marks and won't

**you'd know that when I reach my weight loss goal I will get a tummy tuck.

**you'd know that I love dance movies

**youd' know that I'm not an avid reader.

**you'd know that I hope to inspire others to be the best person possible..

 

 



Ummm..Yeah I Just Did That

Saturday I got up fully intended to run my normal 5 mile route but I instead thought why not go alittle further....1 hr 18 min later and I had wogged....(run/walk/jogged) 6 miles...My inner goddess is dancing around...I'm so proud of myself...a-because really who goes and decides their going to wogg 6 miles unless their in crazy shape or just crazy and b-because I'm down 25lbs...Yeah finally a big milestone...Well I should say I get excited by losing weight every week but this week was big...Progresss.....which equals smaller pants needed asap...Ordered and on their way.

I'm hoping to do 6 again on Monday since it's Labor Day and I'm off anyways...we shall see.
In other news: I made a kick ass diaper cake for my cousin and I'm working on Christmas presents. Please don't grab me through the computer and shake me. Yes I know Christmas is a ways away BUT....I'm going to try and make a majority of my Christmas presents because I rock like that. Ha!!!
Pic's to come soon!!